Hello- I had a healthy pregnancy until my last sonogram at 24 weeks and was sent to a specialist because of signs of TTTS. We then were sent to Houston for laser surgery. Within one day, it went from worrisome to severe and we watched our recipient baby suffer heart failure and pass while we were doing our sonogram to assess the situation. I am now left with the possibility of the donor baby passing and am devastated. The doctors faces said a lot and I feel like the surviving twin will either pass or have health issues. This is so painful & I don't know what I am supposed to do. I have never been on a forum, but I can not sleep or even fathom the choices we are facing. Please, if anyone has advise or has experienced a similar experience, I would welcome feedback. We go today to see how the donor baby is coping with the stress. The doctor watched him bleed out to supply blood to his dying brother, and he watched this happen on the sonogram, along with us. I can truly say that his face spoke a thousand words. My husband and I do not want to bring a child into the world if he would be suffering with brain damage. We are beyond worried about our baby that has hopefully survived, yet we are also worried about the high risk of neurological effects our other babies death on him. This is just the worst thing that I have gone through and am looking for a light at the end of this horrific tunnel. We don't know what to do. We don't want to terminate our pregnancy, yet we don't want to bring a baby into the world that will have a poor quality of life. What tests can we take? I want to throw all my trust into the lord, but it is difficult when you watch the harsh reality of nature strip away one life, while it threatens another. If you have gone through a similar experience, please, please give me some advise or hope....if there is any. I am beyond devastated. It all happened in two days... I'm still in shock. We never even got to do the laser treatment because the damage was already done after the recipient baby passed. Doesn't this group us in with the non-treated TTTS babies ... along with their mortality rates...80-100%. It just happened so fast... I also want frank feedback. If the reality of your situation was bleak, I want to hear it too. I want to be realistic in the face of what we are up against. From one sad mommy to other mommies who have lost their babies too, my heart breaks for all of us.